Week 18- Sweet Potato

Why "Sweet Potato" my iphone app tells me my baby is about the size of a sweet potato now :)
And the size of my uterus is now liken to be a canterlope.

I'm feeling more pregnant than ever. My normal clothes are being archived, those that I can still wear are all feeling very, very snug... :) It's mixed feelings...

For a girl who's always been conscious about her weight and size, it's a challenge for me to feel "fat".
I remember a girlfriend made a passing comment when she was expecting... she told me "my tummy is NOT flat anymore!". I told her "Well! you are Pregnant!! that's not fats!"
Now I understand what she means... I know I'm pregnant, but there are still fears of being less attractive and out of shape.

Even though so... the joy of having a little heartbeat beating inside me, reading that the a week that the bones are developing, and the next nerves are developing excites me. This is truly a miracle from Daddy God.

This week marks the week I'm suppose to feel some form of movement... I was quite excited to feel a little twitch from my belly! Although, I must say I cannot tell for sure if it's a kick or punch yet... it could be really just my tummy twitching right?!?

Next up on my agenda- prenatal classes. Daddy God there's this one I really want to go... but the schedule just clashes with my work schedule... Make a way for me!!

Expecting

I found out I was expecting hmm about 5 weeks ago...

The 1st week- overcoming the shock, I had an out of the body experience, I remember on the next day, I had to run an event, and I remember feeling little odd, and not myself. Immediately the next day, I had serving at RSM... and I remember the on the following week, I had felt the worst I have, dizzy, nausea, I could not go to work for 2 days!!!

Come to think about it- the first thing I was told were lots of symptoms to expect.
Eat small meals becauae you will have digestion problems, don't eat anything raw and no salads, when you have nausea and is dizzy, it means your pregnancy is strong.
It was all advise what was good. But the amount of fear that these put in my mind was not funny.

I experiencing every symptom that was described to me.

It wasn't until my girlfriend Charmaine who just had a baby shared with me about Nerida Walker's book- "God's plan for pregnancy."  

I'm so glad that I read this book- it taught me that I don't have to be at the mercy of these symptoms. I can trust God for perfectly balanced hormones, with none of the bad stuff.

For the next few weeks, I still felt a little off once in a while... but I nothing really major.

I cannot wait for my ultrasound  next monday! yay!

Jas update

In the Background- Hannah presenting wedding concept to a lovely couple

I'm sorry blog- I know I have neglected you... I only remembered you when dear Ms Kok reminded me of you... So let me try to show you some TLC...

The past few months have been a blur- every single day is work, housework, sleep, nightmares, and the cycle goes all over again.

I really hate nightmares- from what I remember, I've really only had ONE day in my life that I actually felt so rested after I slept. I don't understand why there are active dreams or nightmares. It's makes me feel like I have not rested at all... help Daddy God... 

ambition

Can you live without it? I can. A good friend recently shared with me that he was condemned for not having an ambition. This really got me thinking through the entire week.

I never had any ambition. Some people want to be doctors, some lawyers, some homemakers, I just want to be happy- In whatever I find myself doing. I don't need to earn loads, I just want to be able to enjoy the little pleasures in life. Eat at somewhere decent once or twice a week, buy an outfit once a month, a bag a year...

How many of us really have an ambition or vision of what they are suppose to be right now? I really wonder.

Now I'm a wedding planner- next year who knows? A mother?